"Feel"

i think too much.

i think too much on metros when i'm afraid to change the song and hurt the artist's feelings.

i think too much.

i think too much on benches when i sip my stale water and connect every lyric to you.

i think too much.

i think too much on weekends when i wonder if cutting my hair enough times will make me stop being seen.

it doesn't hurt.
they all connect.
you still see me.

i think too much.



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